Friday, May 7, 2010
♥ Angry, confused
Today was totally... Pissyfying?!
--P.E--
Mad at myself for not being able to explain to the class the gameplay ( UGH ), felt like a super extra in the whole team?
--Art--
Art was hell today (talk about me loving Art -.-) Apparently to the trainer, my flower arrangement can either fail or pass. Fail cause it was messy. Pass cause it still had the round shape. FANTASTIC UH. As if centrepiece not messy! Tell me one centrepiece flower arrangement that's not messy. Pfft. And he just took Vidhi and my flower arrangement and started critisizing them like no one's business.
If he thinks it's funny, well yeah haha. It isn't. His sense of humour is like what. Sarcasm uh. Then compare mine to Shantel's, saying mine is somewhat 'worse' than hers. WHAT. Never even teach us what to do still want to say stuff like that.
GAHH YES IT'S HARD NOT TO BE PISSED AT THIS GUY. EVEN ANIA LOOKED ANNOYED WHEN HE TOOK OUT ALL HER FLOWERS AND STARTED RE-ARRAGING THEM.
And he was the one who took out Vidhi's flowers and all and went to anyhow destroy the flowers. Talk about ironic. Critisising his own work uh -.-
--After School--
Had meeting with Interactors. They were sooooo co-operative. Not. Asked them to sing, they mumbled. Asked them to come up with actions they complained/ talk in their own groups. Seriously, WHAT THEY WANT. Last year didn't want to dance, and would rather sing. This year, they don't want to sing. I don't get them at all. All they want is just to go home.
Do they know they're pressurizing Yenlink and I?
OBVIOUSLY NOT.
Care only for themselves. Sometimes I really wished they went for the interview. Then they would really cherish that they got into Interact. They take things for GRANTED, and it's really annoying to see that since I had to APPEAL in. Consider themselves lucky.
And what. Give black face when Vidhi scolded?
THEY DESERVED IT. They didn't want to listen to us anyway.
If they don't want to sing, don't want ot take part, why join this CCA? Cause it's slack? LIKE NO. If they don't 'wake up' from their idea, then I don't know who will be.
And I don't know why I had to be so nice in front of them. It just sucked. Maybe I should have shouted at them. Maybe.
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Conclusion:
I am a useless person with titles given to me that I think should be better for other people and I thik I'm a total failure in my whole life.
I wish I could change. For the better... Become slightly more... Authorative. If not, people will take me for granted because I'm 'too nice/ pushover'. But I'm afraid by becoming authorative, I'll become... 'Corrupted'.
Ugh. I'm confused. What should I do... D:
--P.E--
Mad at myself for not being able to explain to the class the gameplay ( UGH ), felt like a super extra in the whole team?
--Art--
Art was hell today (talk about me loving Art -.-) Apparently to the trainer, my flower arrangement can either fail or pass. Fail cause it was messy. Pass cause it still had the round shape. FANTASTIC UH. As if centrepiece not messy! Tell me one centrepiece flower arrangement that's not messy. Pfft. And he just took Vidhi and my flower arrangement and started critisizing them like no one's business.
If he thinks it's funny, well yeah haha. It isn't. His sense of humour is like what. Sarcasm uh. Then compare mine to Shantel's, saying mine is somewhat 'worse' than hers. WHAT. Never even teach us what to do still want to say stuff like that.
GAHH YES IT'S HARD NOT TO BE PISSED AT THIS GUY. EVEN ANIA LOOKED ANNOYED WHEN HE TOOK OUT ALL HER FLOWERS AND STARTED RE-ARRAGING THEM.
And he was the one who took out Vidhi's flowers and all and went to anyhow destroy the flowers. Talk about ironic. Critisising his own work uh -.-
--After School--
Had meeting with Interactors. They were sooooo co-operative. Not. Asked them to sing, they mumbled. Asked them to come up with actions they complained/ talk in their own groups. Seriously, WHAT THEY WANT. Last year didn't want to dance, and would rather sing. This year, they don't want to sing. I don't get them at all. All they want is just to go home.
Do they know they're pressurizing Yenlink and I?
OBVIOUSLY NOT.
Care only for themselves. Sometimes I really wished they went for the interview. Then they would really cherish that they got into Interact. They take things for GRANTED, and it's really annoying to see that since I had to APPEAL in. Consider themselves lucky.
And what. Give black face when Vidhi scolded?
THEY DESERVED IT. They didn't want to listen to us anyway.
If they don't want to sing, don't want ot take part, why join this CCA? Cause it's slack? LIKE NO. If they don't 'wake up' from their idea, then I don't know who will be.
And I don't know why I had to be so nice in front of them. It just sucked. Maybe I should have shouted at them. Maybe.
___________________________________________________
Conclusion:
I am a useless person with titles given to me that I think should be better for other people and I thik I'm a total failure in my whole life.
I wish I could change. For the better... Become slightly more... Authorative. If not, people will take me for granted because I'm 'too nice/ pushover'. But I'm afraid by becoming authorative, I'll become... 'Corrupted'.
Ugh. I'm confused. What should I do... D:
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