Thursday, October 8, 2009
♥ Happy birthday?
Happy advanced birthday to me. Yay. Haha. -Egos-
Tomorrow is History exam and Ms Su said that some people might not be able to finish the paper -panics- AHHHH. Help. Please let me pass with flying colours this time round and not a borderline pass. Obviously I can't say this for English because I totally screwed up my summary writing. D: Instead of summarizing paragraphs 2 and 3 I went to summarise the whole passage in 64 words. I'm awesome huh. -Egos- Haha.
I didn't want to ruin the post laa.. But I'm feeling super down these days, right after the English exam thing when I found out I did the wrong thing. I just realised I became a 'plaster' to some people. Which is why I'm saying I'm kind of ruining my nice nice post for today. -everyone cries. Lol.-
Okay. So I'm being left out. All of us split into smaller groups, like into twos, leaving me like... stranded. I feel I don't belong with either of them... So I guess I just left and our bonds are starting to break already. Once in a while they'll come talk to me... Because of boredom. So I'm like a plaster to them. They need me when they're not in good spirits, but they're not when I need them. I don't know. I just feel kind of empty.
I still remember in primary school when I thought I was left out, I would give my friends the cold treatment and not talk to them until they asked me what was happening. I just realised that most of the attention was on me than most of others. Although of course there were more popular people in my group. But I was the one whom they cared the most for. I think that time I didn't talk to Yadiy for 2 hours (trust me. It's hard not to even talk to him for 5 minutes -__-) because I thought he was leaving me out. -__- Talk about wilful. D: (Sorry. D:) Yeah. I just think that now, I'm kind of sorry I thought that way. I'm having it for real this time.
At least there is someone who I can go to. Where I think I belong now. And that place, although I do get irritated once or twice a day (provided I don't have mood swings kayy :D), it's still the best place for me. Better than telling secrets to each other which you may not know if it's good or bad. Better than becoming people's plasters. I've been with them for group work, and I know that this would be the right place. Talking about books shall be a change for anime. Talking about studies would be better than talking about other stuff. I'm not going to slack anymore. I'm not going to be like them, the ones who take me for plasters. I shall be strong, if everything goes wrong.
Lastly, I shall turn sadness to kindness, even though I might be used as a plaster again. Sucks to be one. But at least I help people (:
Happy birthday to Mrs Wang, Naruto (Haha. xD) and Mavis in advance.
P.S: I finally got something for my imooto! :DD Uh. About a day ago. o.o Imooto, I not cheapo hor. Your gift is small but expensive leh. Over my budget seh D: Haha. Happy birthday in advance! (:
Imooto, I hope you know who you are. .___. I shall smack myself in the head if you don't know yourself -___-
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