Thursday, July 30, 2009
Congratulations to Ania, Andrea, Isabel, Jaslyn, Elizabeth and Yenlink. They still are POPs. While I got sacked. (:
"A failure is a failure. It is hopeless no matter what you do." -Hyuuga Neji
This is my fate. I guess... That I lack potential there... I feel utterly disappointed with myself. I regretted not to go up and tell the seniors of their attire problem, regretted for being too shy, regretted not telling people to keep their handphones, regretted so many things. I wish... I could just turn back time... Undo everything that I didn't dare to do, maybe that would make me pass... I feel disappointed, sad, and practically just cried. Sometimes... You know you have worked so hard, and yet you didn't get in... I know Tracy had put in all her effort to fight for me, (I should think so ;D Since she's so nice) but... I still failed overall.
"You know the closer you get to something, the tougher it is to see it, and I'll never take it for granted..." - Closer, Naruto Shippuden
Yup. Sure, I understand the meaning now... I'll have to stay strong, even if everything goes wrong. Tracy says I must stay optimistic, even if I feel sad. "Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain” " -Blue Bird, Ikimono Gakari. Well. This doesn't mean I'll not go out with decor. It does seem weird, that I'm not a POP and they still are, and that might start talking about their duties and all that. It's just... plain weird. It's like I'm Jia Yi now, because she was the only one who wasn't a prefect in our clique last year... I wonder if she felt awkward when we talked about our duties... Still, there are so many things I have regretted about.
My mum says to just take it as an experience... I shall try to. But Tracy and my mum gave me a few days to be sad and then carry on with life. Like what Bibi said, it's not like a life-and-death matter so maybe I should just forget the memories we had.
SHA LA LA いつかきっと 僕は手にするんだ
はかなき 胸に そっと 光 燃えていけ
逢いたくなるの 「衝動」 哭きたくなるの 「純情」
夏の火に飛び込んだ ホタルはかえらない
あなたは何も言わず接吻を残して
火傷つくまま うなづいたね
哀しいほど命 揺らめいていた
SHA LA LA いつかきっと 僕は手にするんだ
はかなき 胸に そっと ひかり 燃えていけ
SHA LA LA 愛しきひと あなたもみえているの
まばゆい 月が そっと 明日を照らして
強く 強く 輝いて
I shall, will, and must get back on my feet. But, it will take a few days. (:
--Those who read this, please DO NOT question me about this matter, because I think you should know ALOT of people have been doing that during the GAP meeting. So do not make me cry tomorrow. I don't want to spoil my day. Arigato :D --
"A failure is a failure. It is hopeless no matter what you do." -Hyuuga Neji
This is my fate. I guess... That I lack potential there... I feel utterly disappointed with myself. I regretted not to go up and tell the seniors of their attire problem, regretted for being too shy, regretted not telling people to keep their handphones, regretted so many things. I wish... I could just turn back time... Undo everything that I didn't dare to do, maybe that would make me pass... I feel disappointed, sad, and practically just cried. Sometimes... You know you have worked so hard, and yet you didn't get in... I know Tracy had put in all her effort to fight for me, (I should think so ;D Since she's so nice) but... I still failed overall.
"You know the closer you get to something, the tougher it is to see it, and I'll never take it for granted..." - Closer, Naruto Shippuden
Yup. Sure, I understand the meaning now... I'll have to stay strong, even if everything goes wrong. Tracy says I must stay optimistic, even if I feel sad. "Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain” " -Blue Bird, Ikimono Gakari. Well. This doesn't mean I'll not go out with decor. It does seem weird, that I'm not a POP and they still are, and that might start talking about their duties and all that. It's just... plain weird. It's like I'm Jia Yi now, because she was the only one who wasn't a prefect in our clique last year... I wonder if she felt awkward when we talked about our duties... Still, there are so many things I have regretted about.
My mum says to just take it as an experience... I shall try to. But Tracy and my mum gave me a few days to be sad and then carry on with life. Like what Bibi said, it's not like a life-and-death matter so maybe I should just forget the memories we had.
SHA LA LA いつかきっと 僕は手にするんだ
はかなき 胸に そっと 光 燃えていけ
逢いたくなるの 「衝動」 哭きたくなるの 「純情」
夏の火に飛び込んだ ホタルはかえらない
あなたは何も言わず接吻を残して
火傷つくまま うなづいたね
哀しいほど命 揺らめいていた
SHA LA LA いつかきっと 僕は手にするんだ
はかなき 胸に そっと ひかり 燃えていけ
SHA LA LA 愛しきひと あなたもみえているの
まばゆい 月が そっと 明日を照らして
強く 強く 輝いて
I shall, will, and must get back on my feet. But, it will take a few days. (:
--Those who read this, please DO NOT question me about this matter, because I think you should know ALOT of people have been doing that during the GAP meeting. So do not make me cry tomorrow. I don't want to spoil my day. Arigato :D --
10:00 PM
